10 Things I Hate About You
I hate the way you brought me up,
Believing I'm not good enough
Afraid to fail, Afraid to try
Scared of what you'll say to me
I hate the way you pretend
That none of this is your fault,
Because the others turned out 'just fine'
Even though they're not.
I hate the way you blame hormones,
Or say 'It's just a phase',
When we both know the truth,
It's deeper than a passing thing
I hate the ways you try to 'help'
When you don't even know what's wrong
And I make it so obvious
That I want you to leave it alone.
I hate the way you can't accept me,
In my ongoing mucked up state
Making like I'm normal and happy,
When that was never quite me.
I hate the way you spend so much time,
Telling others how to help their kids,
As if that should make up
For how you've abandoned me.
I hate the way you always pray,
Asking God to save my soul
When so often I've told you
I don't want a prayer said in my name.
I hate the way I can't love you
Because of things in the past,
The scars running deep in my mind,